Codicosica

Lifes a bitch then you die

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They speak to me by Codicosica, literature

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They speak to me

The ceiling is very dark tonight Why am I still looking up Please I just want to sleep But I am not allowed No I cannot sleep Not until they are done They berate me from the dark They laugh and giggle in the shadows I can't see them I can't feel them I know they are there though How do I know? Because they are me They are a piece of me I can ignore them through the day The laughing and insults from the back of my mind I push them away At night they gain life They can move and jump and speak "what if you died?" "What if no one loves you?" What if what if what if...that's what they say Then my friends say I don't talk enoug

Here I am again by Codicosica, literature

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Here I am again

I know I am bitter here I try to avoid the thought It just seems to be my fear That I am going to be forgot No matter how i picture it I am just another name I thought I was a perfect fit Now nothing is the same I do not trust at all People always leave When I do I fall Then all i can do is grieve Finding a path back is hard Its such a steep slope Each time I have a thicker guard But its the only way I cope So here I lay down I can't make it back In my sorrows I drown While my screen fades to black

The Guide to A final act by Codicosica, literature

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The Guide to A final act

Enter me Lonely and shy Wander to the back Take a seat and pour a drink Wait Enter you New but familiar Wander to your friends Drinks are poured for you Talk Enter Fun I am drunk Finally comfortable I walk over and confess Loser Enter silence Everything dies Awkward whispers ensue Walking away is easy now Lost Enter end Walk alone Stumbling buffoon Didnt notice the truck Dead Leave soul Body no use Evaporate to the sky Single entity alone now Peace

Deceived with a smile by Codicosica, literature

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Deceived with a smile

Deceived with a smile So pure so innocent Or was lead to believe Can hide anything underneath What makes a smile believable? Is the person who smiled the reason? Or is it false hope? Ether way it can hide its true intentions Deceived with a glance So unnoticeable yet so big Behind those eyes are plots No one knows what they are How can one look make you cringe? Or to stop a beating heart? Is it some secret meaning? It can be hope or failure behind them Deceived by a person Someone who seemed real Who you felt was real Turned out to be fake Why do we believe in nothing? Or what we think maybe? There is no rational explana

Life and times of a life by Codicosica, literature

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Life and times of a life

Walking down the street Passing people with the same face No one looks or cares Its just a normal day in the human race Just one person in a group Trying to get through the day Faced with infinite choices All leading the same way All paths lead to the same place Every second gets us near Near the downside to every living thing The finally we all fear But it doesn't matter right? As long as number one is fine Every person you see will die No one sees the life line We are just one life In an ocean if billions Who really cares if we fade As long as people make their millions As time goes on our memory fades Friends family an

Dizziness by Codicosica, literature

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Dizziness

Dizziness Twisting and turning Spiraling downwards toward The bottom of the stairs that i descend Nausea and blurred vision cloud my eyes Falling, Falling, down and down My head feels light Sickness Frustration Anger weighs down Rage at these turning stairs How did I end up here to begin with Must have been a wrong turn I made Now I can only ever go down The stairs disappear Emptiness Freedom I can barely see it There is a small light there I can see the bottom of the case For here I must remain forever I must continue into black It was only a torch Facade

She said... by Codicosica, literature

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She said...

She said "I love you" She said "You make me happy" She said "I need you in my life" She told me "I still love him" She broke my heart She said "I'm sorry" She said "I need you" She said "I want to end with you" She told me "I still love him" She broke my heart She said "I want to be with you" She said "Without you i cannot be happy" She said "I love you more then anything" She told me "I love you but I still love him" She broke my heart She said "I will prove myself to you" She said "You don't see what I do" She said "You need to let me back in" She told me "I still love him and I always will" She broke my heart She acts l

A normal monday night by Codicosica, literature

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A normal monday night

As I lay here on my bed Im trying to fall asleep Tears are flowing from my eyes I'm trying not to make a peep My pillow is getting the worst Because your not here to hold No one here knows my pain Just as no one knows about the mold Every breath I take still hurts I cant keep going on like this Nothing anywhere seems right Everything is gone or a miss The darkness if this room encloses I can feel it wrapping around No where for me is safe or secure Not a ray of light can be found I can't see where I am anymore The walls are closing in on me Tighter, tighter I cant breath This little box only I can see Tight cramped and no

Karma on the good people by Codicosica, literature

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Karma on the good people

Up, down, up, down This roller coaster wont stop Playing all of my emotions Not one has been skipped Left, right, left, right I have been pulled apart My body and mind shattered I can't pick up the pieces Front, back, front, back I can't stay at one spot I gain and lose it all Unable to hold what i had Life, death, life, death Reborn and shot down I can't hold on to long My grip is loosening

The same situation by Codicosica, literature

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The same situation

I thought you were different You told me you were different I thought you loved me You told me you loved me No matter what you say you lied I was played as a fool again I lost sleep thinking of you You were different to me You were my dream girl Now my dreams are fried I convinced myself it would work You told me that we would be Dreams now are the only place of love Each one slipping farther away You have to say I tried Finally I must go away You are back with him Again I lose to another man You knew I lost before Well guess what tonight I died

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They speak to me by Codicosica, literature

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They speak to me

Here I am again by Codicosica, literature

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Here I am again

The Guide to A final act by Codicosica, literature

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The Guide to A final act

Deceived with a smile by Codicosica, literature

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Deceived with a smile

forever winter by Codicosica, literature

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forever winter

Trapped like a mouse in a cage emotion trying to work its way out there is no way to describe what im feeling you used to be my world now we're worlds apart sun beating down is different in our worlds You have one i dont my world is cold and bleak Never ending winter working its way into my mind brain freeze and nothing can warm it the sun is hidden and so am i Your eyes are like ice your fingers like icicles your voice like the polar winds it brings back the chills You were like spring with spring came new life then came the blazing heat of summer testing how much i could take fall came and i fell into leaves i thought t

no time is my time by Codicosica, literature

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no time is my time

Any other place or a different time You say it may have been something It may have been a different ending But now is just not right for me No time is my time Ten years will you recognize me While your holding on to his arm Will you stop and say hello Will you just walk on by Walk on by like i thought Telling me you'll remember is far from the truth Telling me you'll never forget is a lie Erase me from your existence is the truth People tell me every dog has its day No day is my day Twenty years will you recognize me on this stage Singing the songs i wrote for you Will you know they are for you? Will you be there in front of

End of an era by Codicosica, literature

Hypnosis Trip by Codicosica, literature

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Hypnosis Trip

Slowly count back from ten You wont remember a thing No more now and then Only the thoughts you bring Fall into a deep sleep Just have faith in me You need to trust to leap When you fly you will see Dream the impossible dream Is what they always say What do they impossible deam What is our right way Stay asleep for a while Keep me on your mind Let me take you miles Soon love will come and find

Happiest poem i ever wrote by Codicosica, literature

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Happiest poem i ever wrote

What happend to me over the years through the tormenting days and the nights full of tears I found something to take that away This girl is one in a million sad thing is she doesnt know I see her as one in 6 billion but im too shy to show When I hear her voice in my ear I loose myself in space and time All my problems disappear Everyone else becomes mime Its funny how I can write it down It would never come out of me The words themselves start to drown In a never ending sea I doubt she knows how much she means I think about her everyday her smile cures me of my disease the cure for me being so far away I would do anything

A poem for her by Codicosica, literature

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A poem for her

Her beauty is magnificent It rivals the goddess Aphrodite herself No words can describe you Because you yourself are indescribable No matter how I write this poem It will never compare to the light in your eyes They shine like the blazing sun And are as beautiful as the harvest moon I know you've been hurt I wish I could change the past for you But I am unable to do that All I can offer is someone who can help the future So stick with me my princess I will keep you safe until the break of dawn Rest you head on my chest No one will ever harm you again I will be what you need A prince, a friend, a love or anything else All I w

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The Things We Cannot Do by oWilloWo, literature

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The Things We Cannot Do

The things we cannot do... I cannot cry Because I don't want people To ask me 'Why' or 'What's wrong?' I have to smile for fear that people will see the emotion hidden by secrets and lies I cannot run Because i am to afraid of the future that lies in store I have to hide For people think I'm content now, And those that know the truth, no longer trust me to be myself I wish to confess, but the words won't come.

It will all be okay by EmilyRobles, literature

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It will all be okay

It will all be okay by Emily Robles Sneaking out Causing doubt Many little secrets about. Turn the latch, twist the knob Lift the glass, pull the ply Just lay down and die. Midnight runs so cool and quiet I run from my problem, my fear, my lie I refuse to listen as I let myself die. As I lay on the grass In the cold and the snow I can't remember the love you say you show If only there was a way... To make the pain go away. As I drift away I know it will all be okay.

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Deviant for 16 years
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I am a 20 year old who is obsessed with poetry. I love to write it because it was the only release I had with my depression. Even if my poems end sad it made me happy to know I had a creative outlet for my emotions. No one would listen to me so the only thing that would was a piece of paper. I also relized that the human race is selfish because no one does anything for anyone else. No one reads anything I write anyway so I could bad mouth a lot of people here and no one will see but i wont. What good would that do?

Current Residence: Burlington
Favourite genre of music: emotional
Favourite style of art: Poetry
Operating System: Windows
MP3 player of choice: ipod lol
Favourite cartoon character: yakko from animaniacs
Personal Quote: Who said it was better to love and lost then to never love at all

Favourite Visual Artist

Pacaso

Favourite Movies

Scott pilgrim vs the world

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

We the kings, Boys like Girls, Slipknot, Thursday, Rise Against

Favourite Writers

edger allen poe

Favourite Games

Left 4 Dead

Favourite Gaming Platform

Wii

Tools of the Trade

Pen and paper and my thoughts

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Music writing

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Codicosica

Aug 17, 2012

Awakening

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Today isn't going to be a long journal, but I need to write one desperately or else I am going to explode. So I did it, I finally put myself first and I did what I have to do to be happy for the first time. I have finally cut out the person I gave the second chance to. I just couldn't do it, seeing the updates of the life she's living because in all fairness she won. She has moved on and on the path to forgetting me as I knew it was going to happen. I can't keep myself there where I know I will constantly get reminded about how happy she is, or is going to be while I am not. I need my own time now, and I need to bounce back. Who knows? Maybe

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Codicosica

Jul 23, 2012

The district sleeps alone tonight

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I have returned, like the prodigal son I cannot leave forever. So I had a weekend where I spent it pretty much thinking myself into a bad mood which tends to happen more then I would like to admit. I have come to some realizations though. First, I can't stand spending my time alone. I have to text people all the time first so I have sort of contact outside of my bubble I spend my time in. If I am not working I am sitting at home infront of a computer screen hoping someone will talk to me. If not I start conversations with as many people as I can hopefully someone will respond to me. Also this whole falling asleep alone thing is getting on my

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Codicosica

Apr 20, 2012

By Now

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Well I have written more journals in the last few weeks then i have written in years. It such a weird feeling but I guess I need to get use to it. Anyway here I am again, broken and I don't know what to do. The girl from the previous journals came back into my life and it was great, fantastic even, haven't been as happy as that since we broke up...but that was until last night. I found out a whole lot of things that I knew but didn't want to hear. How can someone say that they care about you more then anything then do actions that seem to contradict that? I have to admit, she cancelled an expensive to come back and see me and to try and prove